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WTF is wrong with everybody? I was in a department store today and I was in the electronics section. I was just admiring all the ridiculously expensive accessories you can get for your ipod when I saw something called a... Display Frame. And do you know what that is? It is an electronic screen that remains on for ages and shows a photo. And that's it. So God knows how much money was put into developing that piece of crap, and now loads of people are going to go out and buy something that they don't need and that just takes up more electricity for the sake of - what? - having pictures electronically on a photo-sized screen? What's wrong with our laptops and computers?
And it's not even like Harry Potter where the photos are moving.
*breathe Praila breathe* Anyway, in lighter news Bend It Like Beckham and LOTR: Two Towers were on TV last night and I managed to keep flickering between both and I think I'd like to confirm that they are two of my favourite films. I still got tingles when Sam says that speech at the end and they win the battle at Helm's Deep. Ahhhhh :)
Hairspray musical is out on the 11th of October here and that's well annoying because I won't be home in London anymore I'll be back at uni! But I was watching Zac and Nikki on Rove (over and over again) that interview is fantastique!
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I <3 Nikki Blonsky. I'd nominate her for an Oscar just for her personality not to mention her outstanding acting capability. Another thing I'm getting excited about:
Unrelated but nevertheless still something to get worked up about. Actually it is related coz Nikki once was in the play of Sweeny Todd!!! ( I think she said in an interview...) HA! Weasled that one in nicely.
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[09 Sep 2007|01:35am] |
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So it's been over a YEAR since I've been on here and funnily enough a new obsession has sucked me right back in again... Welcome to my life after Hairspray.
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| Music when the lights go out |
[02 Sep 2006|09:39pm] |
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I'm so sorry I abondoned you my lovely ljourners! I only have 19 minutes left according to this sucky internet cafe time thingy and it stinks in here. Everyone's a guy except me and my mum in this place and the people who run it aren't English so it was hard understanding how we got started and how much - I've never been to an internet cafe before. And now I know why.
I've been sooooo busy sorting out so much uni stuff I have to pay for books, sort out travel, accomodation and get this - I need to buy a gown. A gown!! Like a proper dress thingy for formal wear because apparently my accommodation has formal dinners sometimes and we must all look proper elegant!! Lol! Anyway, that's been taking up all my time, so has buying all the stuff for uni like cutlery, cooking stuff, new wardrobe, etc. I start on the 2nd October so 1 month to go.
The reason for my internet absence is caused by:
1. The internet in our house has messed up and
2. I was at Reading Festival for a good 4 days
Reading Festival was amazing. I pretty much saw all my fave bands. On Friday I saw The Long Blondes, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Kaiser Cheifs and Franz Ferdinand. On Saturday I saw Dirty Pretty Things, The Streets, The Arctic Monkey's and Muse. And on Sunday I saw The Kooks, The Rakes, and Maximo Park.
I mean, the bands were fantastical but honestly, the living conditions was like back at the war. All our water was from a single communal tap. I didn't shower for 4 days. Gross. And my breakfast consisted of tuna with crackers and sweetcorn. It cost £3.50 for a hotdog there and £2 for a bottle of water. No wonder inflation in this country is rising drastically.
But the music outdid all of it. Amongst all the hedonistic people I was around who either wanted to get pissed, high or laid, I was probably one of the very few solely there for the experience or music.
The Long Blondes were amazing. Franz were extraordinary but the only problem was that by the time they came out everyone was exhausted because it was 10pm, we were soaking wet from the rain and it was freezing cold but did I care? No. I still danced and jumped around and sang along until my throat was sore :)
Muse was definitely the highlight though. NME are saying that it was the gig of the Millenium. I don't blame them. I lost my voice during the Muse performance because it was soooo amazing, I sung along to everyone and cheered so much. Matt Bellamy wore a t shirt that had TERROR STORM written on the back. I typed it into Google and there's a video by Alex Jones which was a very interesting watch. I recommend it.
I touched the drummer of the Libertines!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GARY! After Dirty Pretty Things performed he came off the stage and said hello to everyone that was sooo cool no wonder everyone loves him :) The Arctic Monkeys weren't as great as everyone made them out to be. Everyone was cheering and Alex turner was like, "You're a quiet lot." I was like WTF?! We're screaming our lungs out here!?!!?! Muse were so electrifyingly good I'm surprised their screen wasn't set on fire and their set was totally amazing too.
My best discovery was definitely the Rakes. I'd never heard of them, had no idea who the hell they were but I was completely blown away by their performance and am now on the hunt for their album. And needless to say Maximo Park was enchanting. It was cool enough that everyone kept chanting, "MAXIMO MAXIMO MAXIMO" for a good 30 minutes before they were due to come on stage so when they came on it was an awesome sing-a-long with everyone and I really enjoyed the new stuff too.
My friend kept telling me that I wasn't drinking enough or being crazy enough. Ha! Do you know what happened to him? He drank too much and he took too much weed he ended up puking in his tent and going to be early unable to nejoy the nights and the music. Dumbass.
Crap. Only 5 minutes left. I've gotta go and post this before it all disappears. Hopefully internet will be fixed and I need to read up on all you guys' journals!! Take care! I'll be back soon!
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| Celebrate good times come on! |
[19 Aug 2006|02:16pm] |
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I GOT INTO BRISTOL UNIVERSITY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
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| Rise and shine all you gold-diggin' mothers are you too good to mingle with the poor poor boys? |
[14 Aug 2006|11:02pm] |
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My dad is being soooooo annoying. So uni is underway, and even if its not, its high time I get myself a laptop instead of refusing to budge from my mum's chair as if I've cemented myself to it and she can never come online coz I'm always online or sorting out itunes or whatever. So we went and got a laptop but yesterday I was talking to my dad about it and I was talking about uni fees etc. how much everything costs, and all I asked, all I asked, was if he could pay my insurance for important person items when I go to uni. I don't live at home with my dad, I live with my mum, and she already pays for all expenses towards me, my dad just gives me a bit of pocket money every week - but when I asked him he huffed and puffed and sighed and moaned and started saying how he's short/financial problems and all this rubbish whatever I mean I know he has loads of money, he's so stupid if he thinks I don't know, I've seen his Bank Statement for crying out loud all I'm asking is for insurance which costs like £50 - I mean my mum has just £770 on me today and even I'm contributing for £70 of it!!!! And my dad is trying to sneak out of £50?!? Honestly if the commandment 'Honour thy father and mother' was not written in, you wouldn't believe what I'd do...
K keeps calling me by 'accident' because apparently my name is really near to another mate's name but she's done this 3 bloody times already and I reckon she's really got a problem with me and Lalicia seeing as we're not really keen on her anymore. I mean K is seriously digging this hole for herself and everytime me and Lal try and offer her a hand to pull her out she turns the other way. I've never met anyone so stubborn or arrogant. What do you do with friends like that?
One of my mates reckons I'm the quintessential indie kid (I'm not, I promise) so I think I won't tell her that I'm planning on getting the new Christina Aguilera album which I actually have no shame about because I LOVE THAT WOMAN she is 10x better than Britney Spears. God, I haven't typed their names in ages! Let me type them again: Christina Aguilera and Britney spears.
I'm not strange, I promise ;) its just that I remember when I was into the whole pop thing, then I was into the R'n'B, then the mellow;/soul stuff and now the Rock.
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| So you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk |
[13 Aug 2006|05:40pm] |
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I just wanna scream the house down. A Level results next week Thur. You can bet your bottom dollar on me that every 18 year old in this country is bitting their fingernails off just thinking about it. 2 of my mates are already suffering nightmares from it and no one wants to talk about it. Without a doubt, they were unbelievably hard, the exams this year, as all the past papers were really easy, kind of climaxing in a way to so much easiness that it was about to come crashing down and resulting in really hard exams.
I was talking to my friend yesterday and he noticed like me that our generation seems to keep missing out on all the goverment goody-bag offers:
- We get the £3000 top up tuition fees
- We're gonna miss when under 18s go free in September of buses (do you know how much money I've spent on travel this summer?!)
- We get the hard exams.
Ok, in nicer news, 2 of my mates are back from going to Austrailia together for 6 weeks and on the flight home visiting Hong Kong, they arrived on Friday and we met up with them on friday evening at our friends house; that was really cool we just all sat around and caught up and we ordered pizza with wedges and ice cream and he had some booze in the fridge so we just ate, drank and talked til like 1am it was really great.
Yesterday I visited the Apple Mac store and I've decided I MUST GET AN APPLE COMPUTER!!!! OMG I was completely blown away with all the stuff apple does and the way it never gets viruses and how it never crashes and it was just wow! I think I'm quitting windows and getting an apple mac for uni.
I also played Monopoly for 3 hours with 4 other friends and I was the 3rd person out and my mate who won later confessed to cheating lol apparently she stole The Strand and a few £500. I knew it. That's why she kept trying to hide her money!!!
Have any of you guys been watching the news recently?! The world has seriously a) gone mad b) been totally corrupted and c) is just getting worse. Like all that Israel Lebanon stuff, and then the other day when they arrested 21 terrorists at the airport and 90,000 people were delayed at Heathrow. 90,000 PEOPLE. And then they started really cutting down on security, no hand luggage, you can only carry imortant documents, all drinks must be drunk in front of an official because apparently the explosives were in liquid form and seriously watching the news these days is soo distressing and scary... I mean we can't not know what is going on because this is our world, this is our life, we need to be aware, you know, but seriously I think can you imagine if you just had your own land, your own farm, your own family with your own crops and cattle etc. like they did long ago and just survive on your land and forget all these material things that we're accustomed too like our laptops and mp3 players or whatever, I mean, I suppose you could still have those as long as electricity is near, but to just live in a completely safe environment... I suppose its not possible.
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| I recall, a time when I knew it all |
[10 Aug 2006|01:54am] |
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I finally got me time. Except it wasn't fully mine. There isn't really a way for me to be purely by myself for sometime because firstly my house is packed and secondly if I went to get out of the house for more than a day I can only do that by staying with a mate or staying at my dad's. So I chose the latter; I've just stayed with my dad for the past 2 days.
Its cool because my dad lives in a flat with a spare room near central London so whenever I stay there I feel more closer to something, I can't explain it, like a kind of different lifestyle... Anyway, its also cool coz none of my friends know my dad's house number so no one can call me or reach me unless by mobile and my mobile has just been on silent anyway.
But what do you do when you want to get out of the house, you want a bit of space from friends, you just want a bit of space from people and you think escaping to the other parent will work but it doesn't? I just couldn't help it. My dad started annoying me. And when today came and I had to go home, back to my house with my mum, I felt so confusingly stuck because I didn't want to go home but I didn't want to stay at my dad's and I didn't feel like being with either of my parents, I just felt like being somewhere completely utterly anywhere else.
Does that make me a bad person?
Thank God I'm going to university this year. I really feel as I've reached the end of this road of having to put up with the same habits and idiosyncrasies that each of my parents have, as they bound off in similarities that make me wonder why they split up. And its funny watching everything that they are, I am not. And everytime I'm with them I don't feel relaxed, I don't feel ok, I feel oppressed sometimes, even suffocated. Oh God, these are really not nice things to say. I feel really really bad. But I just can't help it. When I'm with them, I'm not me. That's why I need to get out of this house, get out of this city, get away from every single thing that has influenced me up to now. I need to fly away and go so that I can start afresh and find myself without pressurising influences and being who people want me to be. Finally I have a chance to get away and find myself, and save myself, before they do.
I went to the cemetary on Tues with dad just to visit the graves of my grandma and great grandma. Everytime I go to a cemetary it makes me think so much. It makes me think about life, and how short it is, and silly it is to be fussing over minor things when at any moment you could literally drop dead. It makes me think of how important your soul is and how you should be aware of what happens after you die. It made me think of my faith and my belief and all that I have sacrificed for my belief in my Jesus/Christianity and I really felt that it's all worth it.
There were graves of children who died aged 2, people aged 98, some aged 25. There's almost a harsh kind of reality that lives in a graveyard as if shows how death has no mercy on anyone.
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[08 Aug 2006|01:54am] |
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I was just reading my 2002 diary and I was amazed at how different/similar I am now from then. I think I was much more arrogant back then than I am now (I'd hate to think of myself as arrogant at all) considering I was only 14 years old. And strangely enough I swear my handwriting was better back then and use of description and diary entries seemed to have been highly entertaining and journalistic which I'm worried has somehow diminished along the tracks of 4 years later.
On Friday I saw the Long Blondes at the Tate Britain with Moto and that was a m a z i n g and what was even more unbelievable is that after we saw them and started wandering the crowd we saw Paul Smith the lead singer of Maximo Park and we were just like "OH MY GOD!!" We spent a good ten minutes debating whether it was him or not: "It can't be him" "what is he doing here?" "But he has a northern accent!" until Moto finally couldn't take it any longer and approached him and IT WAS HIM. Oh. My. God. I mean, that album was like the soundtrack to my life last year and throughout the whole choosing university process thingy so to actually meet the guy whose songs I was singing in the shower everyday - it was soooooo trippy! (cheers americans for inventing that word ;) He was sooo sweet it was unbelievable, I had a notebook on me from the Tate with the image of the Metamorphosis of Narcissus on it and he was like, "Hey that's by Salvador Dali!" I mean, as if I didn't love him enough. And he was sooo nice when I spelled my name and everything and when I told him that it'll be a shame if I don't get to meet him again at Reading Festival amongst the thousands of people he said, "Well at least its nice to know that there are people like you in the audience." Get me a priest and a wedding ring now.
My mates had a joint birthday party at the park on Saturday. Two 18th's containing about 40 people, 3 cakes, 200 sandwich slices, too much food, balloons, ball games and a lot of sun.
I'm the one with the hat. I mean, the girl with the hat lol!
That was great because after 30/40 people left, us remaining 10 went to the fun fair area but because we didn't have any money we sat down and played Monopoly and I multi-tasked and played Chess at the same time and beat my mate Minx lol and because we didn't have enough pieces on this mini Monopoly we had to play in pairs and everyone started acting like couples it was hilarious!! Everyone kept going to each other, "Darling, would you like to buy Oxford Street?" "Don't make any decisions without me!" "Stop spending all our money its an investment!" LOL!
Then we went to a Pizzaria and got all nice salads and foods and pasta at this restaurant neayby but of course we all ordered tap water for drinks - hey we're students we're not made of money. Then we went to Simo's house coz he lives next to the park and we just sat around in his garden in the dark talking and drinking
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On Sunday I went to Sadler's Wells to see Brazil Brasileiro (or some title like that...) and it was excellent! It was this dance thing with singing and all the Brazillian traditional music and dance and God people were applauding so much at the end the cast and musicians had to come out about 3 times to fulfil their applause! It was incredible I've never seen such live dancing with all the flips and somersaults and everything!! Brazillians are brilliant!
Today for some strange reason I really felt like being alone. Well, not alone exactly, but I just feel like a rest from all my mates and everyone I know. Don't get me wrong, I adore my friends too much, but today I just needed space I suppose. You know that feeling when you just want to be by yourself for a bit and think and just do what you want to do... it was like that. And the phone rang and I never picked it up. I don't really feel like talking to anyone. And what's funny is that I've just had such an amazing time seeing everyone within the past 3 days but now I just feel as if I need me or family time or something like that. I reckon I'll just waltz in my personal space for the next few days :)
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[02 Aug 2006|04:32pm] |
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I'm so sorry my little ducklings!!!
I have neglected my LJ duties and scuttled around real life. Honestly. ;)
Last night I saw the West End musical Whistle Down The Wind with my mate Moto and apparently it was a based on a really old film a long time ago starring Haley Mills! Well, it was excellent and the music was beautiful. It was composed by Andrew Lloyd Webber and the piano and drums really stood out!! It was soooo good seriously; its set in 1950s America and its about these naive children who find an escaped convict in their barn but they think it's Jesus because he has wounds on his wrists and feet and it was so sweet!!
In the end I didn't get tickets for Franz (WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!) because I seriously don't have any money.
The tickets/Switchfoot people contacted me and said Switchfoot are cancelling due to someone in their family being ill?!?!!! So they said they can't tour Europe in August so does that mean I should get a refund or just wait until September? Whatever it is its a bummer because I was really looking forward to seeing them next week, learning all the lyrics and everything ,even getting my mum into it.
A university letter thingy-magingy came in the post today and it has all these leaflets with it offering bank accounts, laptops, sim cards, books and stuff all at discounted prices - the world is trying to ensnare us because they've just realised - Hey! We are the next generation and will be running the country very shortly.
I took a student questionnaire today and it was amazing some of the questions they asked:
- Have you ever written to an MP?
- Do you think the gap between poor people and rich people will increase?
- Do you think human civilisation will survive in the next 100 years?
- Who isn't doing enough for the environment? (THE GOVERNMENT!! DUH!)
- Do you think humans will create their own epidemic disease?
It was amazing reading these questions. The answers all seemed so blatant and it really did make me realise how much more EVERYONE should be doing for the world and the enviroment; the government, communities, individually... And the questions seemed almost ironic as it was coming from UCAS which is the official UK university institute thingy which organises our uni places and is set up FROM the government and it was like, they were asking us what we thought of them but the answer was so obvious you know? And it asked if we thought the value of marriage was decreasing, if technology was gonna spiral out of control and if we thought the world had becomed more corrupt since our parents' time and all the obvious answers were yes yes yes.
I timed myself and did a level 4 Sudoko in 12 minutes hurray! I'm now reading The Andy Warhol Diaries (my friends are now teasing me that I'm obsessed - so what if I am?) and I'm reading the Promise of Happiness by Justin Cartwright. That's about this family who are broken and are trying to pick up the missing pieces as their daughter/sister is just coming out of prison for art theft.
You guys reading anything interesting?
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| Ready salted ready on your belly if you wanna have fun... |
[25 Jul 2006|01:38am] |
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Nooooooooooooooo!?!? Why is it that after I spend £50 at Thorpe Park, £142 on Reading Festival tickets, £20 on Switchfoot and £30 on India Arie, that Franz fucking Ferdinand now have to play a gig at the London Forum in Kentish Town on the 23rd August?! WHY? I don't have money coming out of my ears yet! And I know I'm seeing them at Reading Festival, but an intimate gig? I can't take it. Should I just give in and buy buy buy? How will I afford two of my best mates birthday presents?!
And Razorlight have a free gig tonight and well ho ho ho I can't go coz I promised him I'd come and see his band play. Fair enough. But oh to meet Johnny Borrell again and tell him what I really wanted to say, not just to be a pretentious fan but to tell him that his music means something to me, the album means so much to me, everytime I hear it it reminds me of home, of London, and that's why I'll forever remain attached to it and therefore I will fold out into the normal pretentious fan that is overlooked and forseen so many times.
What a sad tale. To not be seen for who you really are.
Tell me a time when you were misunderstood, just so that I don't feel so cramp in the corners of my mind.
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[23 Jul 2006|03:07pm] |
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Friends, Romans, Countrymen...
Friday was a joke. Well, a kind of ironic joke not a funny one. Firstly, the piano exam went okily dokily, my examiner was really nice and I think I made a few minor mistakes here and there but generally I think it went really well.
One thing that pissed me off was that it was held at this lady's house and I swear when I sat down waiting for my turn to be examined, she was eyeing me in distaste - no idea why - and another lady was waiting, showing off her daughter to me who is like 15 and she's finished all her grades on the Cello and Piano. I should've applauded. And while I was talking to them I managed to nail them down into a stereotype. Now, to be honest, I don't want to get into a discussion about stereotypes because they go on forever, and I don't really believe them to be right, I personally HATE being stereotyped so for me to do the dirty deed is quite hypocritical but these people just proved my theory!!!
I believe you can get two types of musicians. One type is the type like those in the waiting room with me - snooty, snobby, rich people who just play instruments for prestige and appearance, look down on everyone, think they're so brilliant because they can play an instrument and they've done the grades, played the price and whatever. And then you've got the second type of musician which I hope I fall into - the musicians who actually do care about music, about the passion behind it and the messages music can get across, who don't care about grades or whatever and just really enjoy playing music as a beautiful and spiritual thing.
So I felt funny sitting in this waiting room with people who I knew thought completely differently to me. But what was really ironic, was the woman whose house it was and who was eyeing me up in distaste, when I came out after the exam she said to me brightly, "You play very well." which was really surprising!! I was just like, "thanks..." and walked out. God I felt free when I walked out of there.
But about stereotypes... I hate stereotyping people. It says in the bible that you shouldn't judge and therefore I hate judging people. But me personally, I too believe its wrong to stereotype someone even as something simple as like a Chav, goth, Pikey, indie kid or whatever because you don't know anything about them. I mean just looking at me you wouldn't be able to tell that I'm a Christian, that I love Bollywood, that I love all different types of Music, that I can play the piano and guitar - and so much more.
I was telling one of my friends this the other day and she was telling me its good to stereotype people because when you're right you're prepared for hhow they're like. And then when you're wrong, its a pleasant surprise. I could see her point, I suppose.
My mum came back on Fri night instead of Sat because she got the dates confused so I had to rush and tidy the whole house and I had to cancel my date with Rachel to go to KOKO - I did find someone to go out with!! - but then I had to cancel and prepare the house.
I was so happy when my mum came back coz I have missed her for 3 weeks. Although, already, I'm starting to feel drowned... Suffocated by her presence. I can't explain it. I've just realised exactly how different we are from each other and the difference is startling. She's already started moaning, complaining, being negative... and I just can't stand it. I want to be happy, I want to be free, I want to feel good. Why shouldn't I? I've officially finished all my exams, this is my time to have fun before I go to uni, to spend time with all my mates but since she's been here she's been complaining about her problems and giving me stick for putting on weight (I swear I lost some..?!?)
Is it harsh to say, I really really wish I was somewhere else. And I know how happy I will be when I go to uni. Because I had a taste for 3 weeks.
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| I heard you say sometimes you fall into the arms of no one at all |
[20 Jul 2006|10:59pm] |
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Tomorrow is the big day. Grade 7 piano exam. Thank God by tomorrow 4pm it will all be over. That's 3 hours a day for the last 3 weeks I've been playing the piano and my mind is now straining to stop itself from working out how many hours that is - see that's what happens when you have a mathematical brain.
I've managed to cut down 'watering the plants time' to 1 hour! Woo! But still, some of my mum's plants are dying. WHY ARE THEY DYING?! I water them every day all the time water water water water because its so hot here and apparently us in England had the hottest day so far yesterday so why are the plants dying?! Crap. Can plants drown??!?!!
I skipped out the other day and bought Muse's new album, Razorlight's new album and a Kings of Leon old album. I've only listened to the first 2 so far and I am very impressed. That Muse album is varied in style and instruments I don't know where to put it in my cd collection. And you're not going to believe how much I spent the other day £100 I mean, I'd rather not say *looks around room innocently* but I just needed some retail therapy and I needed to get out of the house and I saw those CDs and I saw lots of clothes in H&M and I saw skinny jeans which reminded me of Alex Kapranos so I had to buy some and now I'm making all these excuses lol but basically I splashed out when really I should be saving eeeek!
It dawned on me that tomorrow night (Friday night) will be my only night left where my mum is still away and I will have no piano exam to practice for. Thus I've been calling all my friends to go out tomorrow night but no one wants to or they're all working on Sat so they can't. And the most annoying thing is I know someone who definitely would be willing to go out tomorrow night with me but I don't think I can bring myself round to calling him... I don't know. He's always asking me and I always say no. So now for me to turn around and ask him I'll probably get a big, "AHA! Now look who wants to get out?!" kind of speech and I don't need it, I really don't. And last time I was with him he was practically yelling at me for never going out and 'avoiding' him - so what the hell should I do?!
Since my mum went on holiday and I've been living at home alone independantly and having to cook etc. for myself, I've seriously felt not only more grown up but more... powerful. If that's the right word. I seriously feel as if I could just walk out my house door, get on a bus, take it to anywhere, get off and do whatever I want like have a meal at an expensive restaurant or go to a bar and just talk to strangers or go clubbing or just sit in the park or just do anything. Freedom. Absolute freedom. And its almost scary to think I could do anything I wanted to, all I have to do is walk out the door and do it. And its funny to think that the only reason I've disciplined myself at home is because of piano practice because if I didn't have to do it, God knows I could be sitting in a pub in camden talking to whoever and pretending my name is Irene. And then my mum comes back on Saturday and obviously it will be back to, "Where are you going? Who are you going with? How long will you be? Should I pick you up?" and that's it til uni. But I can wait because uni is only 3 months away :) But to have a taste, I must say, it tastes good ;)
General
- I think I have lost a bit of weight... I swear these shorts weren't that big on me...
- How can scientists be denying Global Warming?! Do you know how hot London is right now? I'm sweating!
- Apparently Pete Doherty and Carl Barat were at a Camden pub together last night. PLEEEEEEEEEASE let it be true, they need to patch up and set aside their differences because they were the emblem of a 'best friends' relationship.
- Gold only texts me when she's doing something so totally amazing to blow it in my face:
e.g "I'm at the Pirates of the Caribbean premiere" unsaid: And you're not!
"I'm going to Disneyland on Saturday!" unsaid: I bet you're staying at home!
which is actually rather hilarious because she has absolutely no idea what I've done since exams were over and its almost, just almost a shame she'll never see all the entries towards the bottom of this page ;)
By the way, what is the tastiest and easiest thing to cook?
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[18 Jul 2006|10:59pm] |
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So breakfast cost me like £14!!! Fourteen pounds for breakfast! That was how much my first breakfast at a proper restuarant cost! No wonder I don't do that more often! Lol. Don't get me wrong, the food was great, but really, like I was saying to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) pocky_pirate or rather she was saying to me, I could just make that food at home and cook it me good self. It tasted great but seeing as I've swotted up on cooking mine would've just tasted cool too but what I was paying for was ATMOSPHRE. Yes. Because it was absolutely gorgeous in there. It was all painted the colours of a giraffe in yellow and brown and warm colours and the waiters were friendly and we sat by the window in the morning sun and it was gorgeous and they had these lil mats to put your plated on and it was styled bamboo-like and gosh it was lovely.
We chatted loads which was great coz I can't even remember the last time we went out together so we had a little catch up and then I had to come home and tackle my responsibilities.
Managed to minimum watering plants time to 1 hour only and I have been tinkling away at those white ivories ie the piano keys non stop until my exam on fri and then I shall be set free.
I finished reading the Philosophy of Andy Warhol which was excellently funny, I am so taking that book to uni and now I think I might move onto Labyrinth by Kate Mosse, not the model, mind.
Oh yeah, also, its been the 3rd time the postal service has tried to deliver the Switchfoot tickets and finally they succeeded!! I was in!! The guy looked well pissed off with me though and I noticed that envelope had 3 stickers on it which meant they had tried 3 times lol. Well, this time I was awake, in fact I was lying on the sofa half asleep downstairs waiting for the door to knock so I was actually really happy when he knocked on the door. So Ich werde Switchfoot am 8th August sehen!
Thoughts of the day
- Is it just me or is the Strokes Reptilia video actually extremely sexual?!?
- Why do parents always think they're right?!
- I really hope the Arctic Monkeys do not win the 2006 Mecury Award prize
- I watched How To Look Good Naked and it actually had lots of really good fashion tips! I'm hitting the shops tomorrow!
- Why is Lost so addictive?
- Can I lose a bit of weight right now, please? Just a bit of fat off my stomach?
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| I don't know what I'm doing wrong, maybe I've been here too long... |
[17 Jul 2006|01:03am] |
London. 00:55am is what the computer clock reads. Outside, the street is dead. Everything is black accept the solitary lampost that barely emits a glow. God, this sounds like the beginning of a story, lol! I just killed it, didn't I?
I was just thinking, tomorrow me and Els are going to this place in Muswell Hill called Giraffe to eat breakfast. I've never eaten breakfast at a restaurant before (excluding McDonalds lol) and I was looking at the menu and it looks like it'll not only be my first breakfast at a restaurant, but it will also be my most expensive breakfast, lol, its like £7 for what I cooked this morning!!!
But for Els, my own sake, atmosphere, a chance to get out of the house and millions of other reasons make it worth it. I'll have a great chat with her at that fancy place. Also I've never eaten in there before which is a good thing because I want to go to a lot of new places here before I leave to go uni. And, I know that Carl Barat, Johnny Borrell and Andy Sirkus (Gollum) all live around there so I'll be really awake.
I have to get up at 8.45am. The last time I got up so early was 3 weeks ago. I've been really bad and going to be at like 3am and waking up at noon. Well, I have finished my exams so why not? But really, I know I should be getting up earlier, it almost feels unhygenic to get up so late, lol but I hardly feel guilty coz I need the rest.
So night night my internet loved ones, I'll talk to you tomorrow, Praila xxx
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| I could be there when you land |
[16 Jul 2006|07:57pm] |
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I just saw TOTP and Franz Ferdinand were on and Alex Kapranos is growing a beard!!!!!! Alex?!? Nooooooooo! Why??? Is this Eleanor's doing?! Tell her to put those bloody boots back on and get the hell out
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| Oh how you'd have a happy life, if you did the things you like |
[16 Jul 2006|04:23pm] |
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I am proud of myself. From being the academic busy bee to domestic goddess in 2 weeks is a great achievement (I think) for me. You don't know how bad it was. I could not open a tin of tuna. As my mum always says, I'm good with the whole brainy thing but when its like cooking or cleaning those words to mix. But you see, since my mum has been on holiday I've HAD to cook and clean, no choice, and I have to say its been rather fun *ducks everyone chucking rotten fruit* Seriously! I cooked a full English breakfast the other day and it was gorgeous! Fried egg, sausages, french toast, hash browns and a bit of salad... I was so happy I cooked it well and it tasted delicious. When my mum comes back I think I'm cooking her breakfast for the rest of the summer.
I went to church today, I was 5 minutes late because I wasn't sure how much was on my Oyster bus pass (!@#? I bloomin' hate those things) and I had to check. Then I had a mini shopping spree on the way back and bought some really nice stuff, but really I'm going to wait til after my piano exam and then I'll have REAL time to go to Oxford Circus and splash my cash.
I actually really should be saving and not spending. If I add up the tickets for Switchfoot, India Arie and Reading Festival it totals to like £200. Ouch just thinking about it.
My dad developed the pictures from the Strokes thingy I went to and some turned out really cool but I still need to get the other half developed - I don't even know how many pics I took I must've taken loads!
Once Friday comes and goes I will be happy. Well, even more happy, lol ;)
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[15 Jul 2006|04:15pm] |
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Bloody Hell. I mean, its bad enough I missed it once but to miss it again? They must be up in arms about me. So now I've got to go to the specialmail website again and ask them to send the tickets on Tuesday and this time I don't care if I have to camp right by my front door I'm getting those Switchfoot tickets on Tuesday. I'm a heavy sleeper you see, so even if the delivery guy knocked 100 loud times this morning at 9.45am I was snoozing in the land of nod. I missed the delivery on thursday too.
So today i finally did what I've been waiting to do since my exams have finished - just lie on the grass in my garden amongst the trees and flowers reading a book and drinking orange juice. And I did it!! Today!! Woooo!! In fact I did it for several hours lol I've almost finished the Philosophy of Andy Warhol and I updated my summer diary. The neighbour was playing radio music and it was driving me crazy because I was trying to concentrate - I like reading in quiteness you see - so it didn't help for them to be blaring Madonna's Like A Virgin.
My dad is hopefully picking me up in 3 hours time and we're gonna eat out somewhere nice. Maybe that posh fish place in West Hampsted. He has my Strokes pictures developed yay!
My mate is organising all of us to go to a theme park next next week Monday so that should be cool.
This is the view from my loft, I just like putting it here.
Its Alexandra Palace. That is where I watched the fireworks 2 years ago, that is where I saw Razorlight and also where I saw Franz Ferdinand. It is also where I spent one of the best days of last year; on the grass there with my mates for 6 hours talking, having a picnic and playing cards. Purely unadultered and purely fun.
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| Moving up and out |
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"You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover will be yourself." - Alan Alda
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